Sunday, 10 February 2013

Chapter 6: Tujhe Bhula Diya


“Goodnight Khushi. I love you,” he whispered and kissed her hair. He closed his eyes and, after his sleepless night the previous day, sleep found him quickly with Khushi in his arms.
 
The sun shone through the French windows, the sun rays outlining the two sleeping figures. The sun was too bright for Arnav and he opened his eyes. Khushi was next to him and he had an arm around her waist holding her close to him. He kissed her on her cheek and wished her good morning. He tried to turn to get out of bed but realised that Khushi had her hand over his arm and she wasn’t going to let go anytime soon. He gently tried moving her arm away with his free hand but woke Khushi up. She turned and saw Arnav with a small smile on his face when she opened her eyes making her smile. If only she could wake up like that every morning. “Morning,” she said sleepily not wanting to get out of bed and not letting go of Arnav’s hand. “Good morning,” he replied. He noticed that Khushi still hadn’t let go of him, “Uhm... Khushi...” he said. “Hmmm,” was all she could utter. “Can I go shower?” he asked cautiously. Khushi looked at him confused and was now wide awake. “Why are you asking me?” she asked him puzzled. He indicated to his hand that she was still holding. “Oh,” she exclaimed letting go. “Sorry,” she said with a sheepish grin. Arnav chuckled and grabbed the bag he had packed the previous day before he left home. Arnav grabbed his bag and went to the bathroom. Once he had finished and came out he helped Khushi to the bathroom and handed her clothes. He told her to call him when she was done but she assured him that she was feeling better than  yesterday and that if she didn’t try walking by herself she wasn’t going to heal, so Arnav gave in and went downstairs.
 
Just as he reached the bottom of the stairs the doorbell rang. He opened the door and saw another guy standing there looking inside as if he was searching for something. Arnav gave him a who-are-you look but he just ignored him and barged in. “Khushi! Khushi! Khushi where are you?” his voice boomed through the house. Khushi had just finished the bathroom and heard his voice as she walked out. She threw the towel on the bed and tried walking as fast as she could to the staircase. Arnav was standing downstairs watching this random barge into the house shouting for Khushi but just about got the shock of his life when he saw Khushi walking to the top if the stairs with a huge grin on her face. Arnav’s mouth dropped open as he saw this guy running up the stairs to at a time and grabbed Khushi in a bear hug. Arnav was fuming! Who the hell did this guy think he was? How could he just walk in here and have his own way with Khushi? There was smoke erupting from Arnav. All he saw was red. He was about to storm up the stairs and rip him off her when someone grabbed his hand and pulled him back. “Cool down Romeo. You look like a volcano that’s about to erupt,” Avani said as Arnav turned to see who was stopping him. Arnav glared at her and she gave him a “just chill” look. Avani was about to let go of Arnav seeing that he had calmed down a little but held his hand tighter when the guy picked Khushi up and carried her down the stairs. Avani felt Arnav tug her and she pulled him back with two hands. “Sheesh! I told you not to get excited. What don’t you understand?” she said exhausted from putting in all her energy to restrain him. The fact that Khushi was laughing openly at everything he was saying and was giggling like a little school girl didn’t help either. He took Khushi to the living room and sat her down on the couch. Avani let go of Arnav and almost at the speed of a bullet Arnav was sitting next to Khushi. Khushi looked at him confused. “Hi Khushi,” Avani said with a smile as she walked into the living room. Khushi smiled and silently asked her what was up with Arnav. She rolled her eyes and indicated towards the guy that she was standing next to. “Oh!” Khushi exclaimed out loud. They all looked at her quizzically and she laughed.
 
She turned to Arnav and put her hand over his to calm him down. He looked at her, “Arnav, this is my mother’s nephew Barun. He’s my cousin but he’s more of a brother to me,” she said giggling. Arnav had a look of realization on his face and looked at Avani and Khushi apologetically. “It’s okay,” they said in unison. “Wait, I’m a little confused. Who’s apologising?” Barun asked scratching his head. They all burst out laughing and Avani put a hand on his shoulder, “You see,” she tried to explain between giggles, “Arnav is very possessive about Khushi even though they not dating or anything like that he’s in love with her so he doesn’t like anyone else touching her. So while you two were playing ‘carry me’ down the stairs he was standing here ready to erupt like a volcano.”  Barun listened intently to what she was saying realizing that Arnav was the guy. Arnav turned his attention from Khushi to Avani, “By the way Avani, what are you doing here?” Avani grinned at him. “I came to meet my future sister-in-law and my brother it seems,” she said with a raised eyebrow. “I don’t owe you any explanations,” he said sticking his tongue out at her. They all sat down and chatted and soon enough they realised that Avani and Barun were together and had decided to get married which is why Barun returned from London. They chatted, had breakfast and spent the rest of the day together. That evening Arnav went home after Khushi had fallen asleep and came back early the next morning. He didn’t need to worry about her seeing as Barun would be staying there from now on. The rest of the week went by with Arnav and Avani visiting Khushi and Barun everyday. By the end of the week Khushi could walk by herself and was perfectly fine.
 
Arnav had needed to go to a press conference that evening so he left Avani with Barun and Khushi. They were watching TV and chatting when the door burst open and Yug Gupta stormed in. He barged into the living room taking everyone by surprise, grabbed Khushi’s hand and dragged her away from the other two into the guest room downstairs. After a few minutes Barun and Avani quietly went to the room and stood with their ears against the door. “What the hell did you think you were doing? You know that Maya is going to marry him and still you’re trying to be his lover,” he said disgustedly. Khushi just sat there quietly not daring to say anything. “This is the last time I’m warning you! You call him and say you don’t ever want to see him again. I don’t care how you do it but you will. His father called off the engagement last night because of you! I don’t want that happening again. So make it known to him you don’t want anything to do with him or else you remember what I said the last time. And I’m sure you wouldn’t want me to do that,” Yug emphasised before walking out the door. Avani and Barun turned and walked in the opposite direction so that he wouldn’t suspect them. Yug left the house and Khushi ran upstairs to her room. She ran straight through the door and out the French windows to the poolside. She fell down on her knees and cried.
 


Naina laggiyaan baarishan
Te sukke sukke sapne vi bhijj gaye
Naina lagiyaan baarishan
Rove palkein de kone vich neendh meri
Naina lagiyaan baarishan
Hanju digde ne chot lage dil te
Naina lagiyaan baarishan
Rut birha de badlaan di chhaa gayi
 
My eyes start raining
And even dry dreams were soaked
My eyes start raining
My sleep cries in the corner of my eyelids
My eyes start raining
Tears fall and my heart aches
My eyes start raining
As the season of dark clouds and separation approaches


 
Why? Why did she let herself go? Why did she show him her love again? Why did he have to say he loved her? Why did he have to come back into her life? She was fine grieving by herself until he came. Now she had to live through all that heartbreak and pain again. Would she be able to withstand it a second time? What her father told her to do hurt her. The fact that she had to sacrifice her love unwillingly hurt her but what hurt her the most was the fact that she’d cause Arnav pain. That pain was what really hurts. She got up and walked into room looking for her phone.
 


Kaali kaali khali raaton se
Hone lagi hai dosti
Khoya khoya inn raahon mein
Ab mera kucch bhi nahin
Har pal har lamha
Main kaise sehta hoon
Har pal har lamha
Main khud se
Yeh kehta rehta hoon
Tujhe bhula diya
Tujhe bhula diya
Tujhe bhula diya
Phir kyun teri yaadon ne
Mujhe rula diya
Mujhe rula diya
 
Dark and lonely nights
I have now befriended
Lost in these paths
I have nothing of my own anymore
Every passing moment
I don’t know how I endure
Every passing moment
I tell myself
Over and over again
I have forgotten you
I have forgotten you
I have forgotten you
Then why have you r memories
Made me cry
Made me cry


 
She picked up her phone of the dresser and dialled Arnav. He answered on the first ring, “Khushi, are you okay?” he asked. I’m on my way. The conference just finished.”Khushi closed her eyes and a tear rolled down her cheek. “Don’t Arnav. I made a mistake by letting myself go after the accident. I shouldn’t have done that. It only made things worse and now I have to fix it. I was fine these past six months by myself ASR. I didn’t need you and then...” Khushi trailed off. She pulled herself back together despite the tears flowing down her cheeks, “I don’t want to see you again. I don’t want to hate you but if you don’t listen to what I’m saying now then you’ll force me to. Just stay away from me please,” she begged him. She took a deep breath, “Goodbye Arnav,” she said then cut the call not waiting for his response. She threw the phone on the drawer and flung herself on the bed.
 


Teri yaadon mein likhe jo
Lafz dete hain sunaayi
Beete lamhe poochte hai
Kyun hue aisa judaa
Khuda khuda mila joy eh faasla hai
Khuda tera hi yeh faisla hai
Khuda hina tha woh ho gaya
Jo tune tha likha
 
Written in my memories of you
Are the words that I hear
Bygone moments ask
Why we have separated like this
God this distance created
God it was your decision
God what you had written
Has happened


 
She buried her head in the pillow and cried. No one could stop her now and this is what she needed to do. She needed to let it all out now. But how could she possibly forget the last week that she spent with him. Every moment she spent with him became one of the best moments of her life. How could she erase all of those memories that he was a part of? Khushi let out an agonizing scream. Avani immediately got up downstairs to rush up to check on Khushi but Barun stopped her, “She needs to. Just let her do it.” Avani sat down her tension and worry only increasing. Khushi had finally shed all her tears. Even if she wanted to she couldn’t anymore because there were none left. She stood up with bloodshot eyes and walked out her room downstairs.
 


Kaali kaali khali raaton se
Hone lagi hai dosti
Khoya khoya inn raahon mein
Ab mera kucch bhi nahin
Har pal har lamha
Main kaise sehta hoon
Har pal har lamha
Main khud se
Yeh kehta rehta hoon
Tujhe bhula diya
Tujhe bhula diya
Tujhe bhula diya
Phir kyun teri yaadon ne
Mujhe rula diya
Mujhe rula diya
 
Dark and lonely nights
I have now befriended
Lost in these paths
I have nothing of my own anymore
Every passing moment
I don’t know how I endure
Every passing moment
I tell myself
Over and over again
I have forgotten you
I have forgotten you
I have forgotten you
Then why have you r memories
Made me cry
Made me cry


 
 
She walked into the living room where Barun was trying to comfort Avani. “Barun,” Khushi said standing at the door. Her voice was completely emotionless, “Take Avani home. Arnav’s not coming back.” She turned and walked back upstairs as Barun and Avani left. She was alone and the house was empty. She walked around the house like a lost soul unsure of what to do with her life. She went outside and stood next to the pool looking at her reflection. Her already red eyes started tearing again. Here she thought she didn’t have any tears left. She just stood there not noticing the flashes of lightning in the sky and heavy rolls of thunder. The rain started pouring down on her hiding her tears.
 
 


 
 
Naina lagiyaan baarishan
Hanju digde ne chot lage dil te
Naina lagiyaan baarishan
Rut birha de badlaan di chhaa gayi
 
My eyes start raining
Tears fall and my heart aches
My eyes start raining
As the season of dark clouds and separation approaches


 
Arnav was on his way to Khushi’s house when she had called him. He pulled over on the side of the road when she had cut the call. What happened so suddenly? She does that to him every time. Everything is fine one minute and then it all goes wrong the next. There has to be a reason behind it. Arnav was a bottle of mixed emotions. He jumped out the car slamming the door and leaned against it. He didn’t even try to stop his tears. The rain was beating down on him heavily but he didn’t care. The memories from the past week he had spent with Khushi all came rushing back to him.
 


Do pal tujhse juda tha
Aisa phir rasta muda tha
Tujhse main khone laga
Judaa jaise hone laga
Mujhse kuchh mera
Tu hi mere liye ab kar duaa
Tu hi iss dard se kar ke judaa
Tera ho ke tera jo main na raha
Main yeh khud se kehta hoon
 
I was attached to you for a few moments
Then the path turned in such a way that
I began losing you
It felt like I was separating
From something that was mine
You yourself pray for me
You yourself separate me from this pain
I couldn’t be yours even though I was
I say this to myself


 
Arnav got back in his car and drove home. He walked in drenched Anjali extremely worried running after him but Arjun stopped her. He saw Barun there with Avani talking to his mum and dad. He ran upstairs changed into dry clothes and came back downstairs. “Arnav where are you going?” Avani asked him. He just ignored her and carried on walking. “Stop Arnav,” Barun said. “There’s no point. She won’t let you in. She said she doesn’t want to see you and she won’t,” he made clear to Arnav. Arnav didn’t turn back but spoke to Barun, “She can’t do this to me every time Barun. I want answers.” Barun shook his head, “You need to understand. She’s not doing this to you. She’s doing it for you. And she’s only hurting herself for someone else’s happiness,” Barun said looking accusingly at the Guptas who had come to see Sadhna. Arnav followed Barun’s gaze and realized what he was hinting at but the Khushi he knew would never give him up to someone else. “Just forget her. It’s better for everyone that way,” Barun said and walked out of RM. Arnav walked to his room ignoring and blocking out all the questions his family was asking.
 


Kaali kaali khali raaton se
Hone lagi hai dosti
Khoya khoya inn raahon mein
Ab mera kucch bhi nahin
Har pal har lamha
Main kaise sehta hoon
Har pal har lamha
Main khud se
Yeh kehta rehta hoon
Tujhe bhula diya
Tujhe bhula diya
Tujhe bhula diya
Phir kyun teri yaadon ne
Mujhe rula diya
Mujhe rula diya
 
Dark and lonely nights
I have now befriended
Lost in these paths
I have nothing of my own anymore
Every passing moment
I don’t know how I endure
Every passing moment
I tell myself
Over and over again
I have forgotten you
I have forgotten you
I have forgotten you
Then why have you r memories
Made me cry
Made me cry


 

Arnav and Khushi both sat in their rooms thinking about each other trying to forget whatever they had between them and how much they loved. No matter how hard they tried they just couldn’t. Their memories of one another kept haunting them not letting them be set free from each other. How could two people that loved each other more than their lives and with all their heart ever forget each other? How could fate keep them apart? Would destiny not unite them again? Would their love survive this separation or were they just never meant to be together?

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